What Healing Looks and Feels like!

Healing for me was scary at first, I didn't know what was happening to me. My mindset was that emotional and mental illness was a physical project its getting over what hurt me... That's not the case at all everything was spiritual my healing only became my reality once I verbally confessed my sins and asked my power whom I call Yaoh to take away my desires then I submitted to the process and let Yaoh(God) lead my steps.... Many spiritualist would call this process a ego death( it's is killing the flesh) which are into witchcraft, spells, manifesting, a universe, etc, but no it's ALL Yaoh. See we humans don't like to give credit to God, which causes him to be jealous. We take matters into our own hands or put our faith in idols or thunder we created or religion that's man made out of fear cause of how the world tells us to be or what's acceptable.... Year 2020 I practiced spells, chakras and stuff( didn't end well) I got scared and felt it wasn't right I stopped.

In a lustful moment Yaoh stepped in and said enough....Since 2021 I came across a truth hidden within lies called religion, religion was created to put fear into blacks and control them... To create America and it's dream which was a living nightmare for us colored folk....( This not about race), but A nation that disobeyed their Fathers command( the Hebrews) which are the "African American Race"( this can be explained in another blog )I had my rude awakening then. I put a end to my sins I could control like eating pork, sexual relationships, being in chaos doing things I shouldn't have been, etc. By this time I had my 5th child. The father and Idecided to try being married under the law but it was not Yaohs will so we "divorced". I realized toxic abusive relationships Are never Yaoh will so don't force it. Yaoh will never give you something that hurts....

We choose these people out of trauma and instead of letting go and learning the lesson. We hold on causing us further suffering( as Yaoh-shai/ Christ) we are betrayed, belittled, judged harshly, as blacks we go through generational curses that cause us to suffer( I'll explain details different blog) Some have used the law of Moses to manipulate the WORD to their liking I don't agree with it....I distance myself from people who are hypocritical. I don't ever judge a person Yaoh judges those who live in the Flesh are judge by the law therefore cursing themselves. So for me I had to gain knowledge of the law to see what sins I was committing then stopped doing it... It hits different when you do right because you love Yaoh rather than being a stubborn child who just doing it cause they were told to do so but will rebel later cause your heart isn't into being obedient..... As I increased learning I started to understand how Yaoh felt. I wept and I couldn't stop....I journaled my thoughts I called them downloads not understanding it was the Rohk( spirit) speaking to me( what we call intuition) I listened and I followed and it lead me to forgiveness, righteousness, freedom, wholeness, and closer to Yaoh. I sat in my closet and begged for help cause healing hurts and it cuts deep. In that moment I died and I stared into nothing and everything I knew no longer made sense. I heard the Rohk say you're made New and my sins are forgiven....I cried and ever since then I listened to what it told me and trusted it fully.... The Rohk is Wisdom and when you listen to wisdom and let it guide you back to righteousness you start to do the will of Yaoh and do away with the "old man" (wordly flesh self seeking desire) only then you can understand the GOSPEL OF YAOHSHAI ( means Yaoh is salvation/ who the world gave us JC) and the kingdom and understand why he was murdered and how it relates to today( another blog).... Once I realized what was happening to me I felt peace, protected, all my weight I carried and done was lifted, I felt safe, home, like a child again, I could finally feel Yaohs precence in my life and I'm Grateful.

Healing is repentance to become a servant of Yaoh and to minister the word of Yaoh and to heal others by truth and letting the Rohk testify to the word spoken.... He who denies the Son ( Yaoh shai) denies his own Soul you can't not heal if you DENY WISDOM he sent his WORD to save you! I'll let that marinate!!!!

BLESSED IS HE WHO UNDERSTANDS FOR THE KINGDOM IS NIGH!